이런날

오늘은 키우는 꽃을 꺽고싶고, 배부른데 아프도록 먹고싶고, 죄를 짓는데 더 쌓고 싶고, 물고기 어항에 주스를 붑고싶고, 밀린 일을 더더욱 포기하고 싶고, 없는 돈은 쓰고 싶고, 사람들은 만나기 싫고 어디론가 막 다녔으면 좋겠다.

봄날씨다

Dieting

So. I've had a little conversation with my mom last night. It was good at first--I was updating on how much of a mess I am lately; I've been missing deadlines, turning in mediocre assignments, and backing into a car. Then she ungraciously mentioned me gaining weight. I've gained 5 lbs during end of semester/finals. So I weight 145 lbs. It's a lot for Asian 5'4" female. But I swear, it's the least thing I need to hear right now. I've got my priorties. While I much prefer to slim down and have self-control with what I am eating, when other parts of my life are wreck, I give a very little piece of mind to staying fit. I would like to get other shit straightned out before I can decide if I want to take care of my body. And my mom--she needs to know when to not say certain things--gives me a lecture on this. So I hung up on her. I TOLD her I did not want to hear this right now. So I just hung up on her without much warning. Please, I do not want to invite more stress. How the hell is that going to help me where she wants me to be? Nagging your child never works. I SWEAR. No matter how much my mom justifies her nagging (saying that it's wise words), I will always get pissed off if she brings it up when the time is not right. THERE IS TIME FOR THINGS. Please, watch where I am when you are going to lecture me. If I were to start dieting right now like my mom suggested, I would shut down in my work, school, etc. So don't bug me. This pisses me off immensely and I want to block my mom, but I won't go that far right now.

Added 6:04 pm...

I just hate myself right now. I am not who I want to be. And I keep replaying this song; 

12/12/15 Blog Grand Opening

I am pretty excited about my new blog page! I have never really kept a blog, but I think I've always wanted to keep some journal where I can post the things I see and feel. It's a great way to end 2015,

I'm looking to investigate in a good camera phone. My intention is to capture small little moments of my life. Though buying a dSLR or digital camera will give me a better quality photo, I won't be carrying that around all the time, and I don't want to miss out capturing interesting little moments in my life.

Oh, by the way, I also have a youtube channel! Here's a link!

Krannert Performance Center.
Someone's graduating!

So, I'm currently at Krannert. Came here to be somewhat productive, and I'm watching graduates go by..and I'm writing my first blog entry :0

It was great seeing people celebrating their hard work. They had such a victorious, festive mood, that I caught it as well! Congrats~

Edit: I see why God showed me this today. This is how it will be like in heaven. Everyone will have their story--some might have cheated on exam, some might have graduated with a C-, some will tell stories of pulling all-nighters, some will mention great friends and families, some will tell a lonely testimony, some will be doctoral graduate, some bachelors, some will have had mentors, some are mentee, etc. They will have had their portion of hurts, of struggles, of joy and of peace. In the end, the thing that matters is though, is that they've done it--they've graduated! Great or small, everyone has made it to the finishing line. That is kind of what heaven will be like. We will finish with many different stories, but God will celebrate our finish. He is the college advisor and the banquet master. We will all have stories of victory because our God is an overcomer. Amen.